|Posted by kaylagracedavis on February 3, 2012 at 10:25 AM|
Is she your first? Such a simple question. Yet it still brings me so much stress, pain, and guilt. As the years pass, I am still figuring out how to fit my first daughters life and death into my life. But that question is still the hardest to answer. I never really get peace about what to say. I HATE not including her, feels like I am denying her or her existence. But there are times (more than I care to admit) that I feel myself saying yes, then hating myself for it.
This is the third valentines day I have decorated her grave. As Gabrielle grows (she just got her first teeth!) I long to have my whole family here, to celebrate Valentines day with both my daughters.